It's been nearing to two years since this blog died.
Okay , maybe one and half a year.
I'm still missing everything. XD
Perhaps i will post once a month ?
Alright , i shall do that ! (Y) !

I was watching Hi My Sweetheart
It was so funny !!!
SO NICE !!!
What a nice show !!!!!!
GAHHHH !!!

But for some reason
.....
Tears welled up in my eyes
Rainie Yang shared some resemblance
And Show Luo shared some resemblance

. . . . .
If only i am rich
All along , it's never disappeared
It is just hidden
Buried deep

Something's digging it up again
It is being re-awakened
What can i do now
Except to do nothing

Devotion is long
Infatuation is short
My devotion still exists
Just that all along , it's me
I've been trying to hide it

It's already been 2 years long ...

forget it.

Full of impossibility !
Weee ~

When i see you , my heart raced
When i see your smile , my heart skipped a beat
When i see your laughter , it makes me happy
Conclusion : when i see you , i get hyped up !

Naaaah ! XD
Let me just babble something out for once
Since it's hopeless and i don't intend for it to remain the same
Unless we get into the same Pre-U !
Then it will change , maybe i will start to pursue you ! MAYBE though !
Who knows you might change already ?

LOL ! But nonetheless ! I LIKE YOU for now !
Not that i am trying to be bhb but i am really proud of myself !
I am able to get over her !
Hehe , this post is superbly confusing !
It probably won't work if i never gave you a hint or what ! ^^

It's impossible to figure it out ! HEHE ! XD
Well , rejoice ! Toilet !

The truth

I think deep inside i still really want the past to be back terribly and miserably
I dreamed again

Out of the blue , "Hey ! How are you doing ? :d" on MSN
I replied with a "hi."
Then i saw you typing a message ...
Then Last Message Received at 06.38 pm

I know u canceled away what u wanted to type
Hesitating ?
And i saw u typing and Last Message Received , repeatedly for many times
In the end , nothing was said
And all ended with my "hi."
When hi should be used as a beginning

It's so ironical , don't you think so ?
I find it amusing .. seriously
Preposterous would be a good word

I saw the sms-es again
We were like back to the happy-happy type again
Then suddenly all ended
No more sms-es
It didn't continued , ended on this date
23-7-09

I can see it's not long ago
But i have the feeling that this is the end again
It will end here again , once again , once more and no more
Because it will end totally , no more that is

Sometimes , pride is really nothing compared to a relationship
I really don't regard pride as something meaningful
But , i think principles is more important though
My principles , i could never say them all out
They are rules , set by myself , used to discipline myself

But when someone just play around with my principles , my rules , my discipline
I really would just snap
'forbidden words' , 'restricted territory'
they are the right words to use

yeah , i let you in my world
and you exit it by yourself , without saying a word or goodbye again
i hate this way of ending
but if that's what u want
so be it

i can't control you anymore
i'm not the 'brother' again
and all along , it's not me controlling you
i'm a puppet , your the puppeteer
you are just manipulating me and making me dancing to your will
bending my wills

that's all , it's been like this all along
it had never changed and it never will
any one's actions won't be so severe as to bending my principles
but yours , is
bending my principles is the ultimate , above insult and humiliation
it's worst than that when someone bends my principle

i really ... am dumbfounded
words that you don't even mean it , promises that you don't even intend to fulfill
how many times must you stood me up , manipulate , control , take advantage
before you are really satisfied ?
i may still like you , but not to the past extent of madness
but really .... if you still continue this way ... i really hate to wonder what you will turn into in the future

Why do i get so excited seeing you ? LOL !
I don't know why !
Is it a good thing or bad ?
I guess it can be a good thing in one point , it proves that i no longer like 'her' !

But however for 'her' , i don't know why i dreamed that i was talking to you and we were having so much laughters and fun just from our chats
From a psychology view , dreams are somewhat our inner 'conscious'
It just reflects what we are thinking deeply , whether unconsciously or consciously

Seems like deep in my heart , i still wanna talk to u and relive those pasts
But it's impossible
I won't allow it
It's gonna affect me ... either way
i will ban myself from looking at you and saying hi , which u hated so much